things i'm thinking when I can't sleep

i have this playlist for when i have a migraine... all the songs are kind of calm-ish. every time i lay down here i turn it on. I've tried to listen to other things but it just doesn't work and I flip back. The song Re: Stacks by Bon Iver is on it, I swear that has to be on of the most calming songs in the world. I don't like Bon Iver at all, I don't know how I came about to that song but I'm glad I did... it helps a lot.

We went to the store today... it's a "small" one and it's like a mini mall. there are department type store along the outside (but on the inside of the store) and people with kiosks and food places then once you get past the checkouts its an actual grocery store. it was so weird to see. You know the buggy's you get that slide all over the place and you cant control...like they are slippery? THEY ARE ALL LIKE THAT HERE. i can't manage it, i needed help. it cost one euro to get the cart out of the chain...that's like, a dollar something... isn't it still a quarter at Aldi?

I can't focus on a conversation for too long or i get dizzy. I think Italian is... harsh(idk?) sounding. or at least my ears it is. I really can't think of how to describe it other than harsh. I don't think Ive told many people, like 3, that i have tried to learn Hindi (if tons Bollywood movies and an online course count) but ive picked up quite a bit of it. I like the way sounds, how it just seems to flow, and sounds so nice and somewhat natural to my ears. Italian to me sounds just the opposite. It's so weird. I'm to the point to where i can actually pick up certain phrases (instead of just one word here and there) and think a little in Hindi, and I'm doing it here. I hear things in Italian but think of the meaning in Hindi? There are a few words that sound somewhat similar and I can't get it my head to just stop. On the news today they played a clip of a Bollywood actor and i swear thats the most familiar thing I've seen since I've gotten here.

We are going to Lake Garda tomorrow till Tuesday... maybe I'll start taking pictures, haha. I've taken one so far. Of the cat... Othello, he's the exact color and pattern of my cat but the attitude of my brothers. The other cat isn't around much. At dinner Anna asked if I was home sick yet, i made the mistake of saying just for my dog and now want to cry.